Snips and Snails and Puppy Dog Tales
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First off, I love the sound of this. Supposedly all those drummers are famous, and one person got them all together:

In other news, the MMO I play (FFXIV) had a fanfest this weekend, and kindly they had a livestream of most of the weekend. Talk about nonstop exciting! I'm kind of sorry I wasn't there in person, but there are a whole lot of benefits to attending from home, and it was just not practical for me to travel this year. (Plus tickets were nearly impossible to get, sold out in a couple minutes.)

In other other news, I hit the 12 day point of losing no weight. I eat about 600 calories a day (I used to eat more than that in a meal!), so not losing any weight for nearly two weeks was boggling. Was it a plateau? Maybe? So I googled how to break one. Unsurprisingly, the advice was all over the place: Eat more calories! Eat fewer! Exercise more! Exercise less! Eat only protein for 48 hours! Go back to a liquid diet for a week! I decided to try the easiest one, eating only protein for 48 hours. Just the way things worked, that also reduced my calorie intake to about 400/day. (Sometimes I feel like I have an eating disorder, eating like this...) I lost two pounds over the weekend, so maybe, if it was a plateau, I did break it. (Or maybe I'll gain the pounds back tomorrow, who knows.)

Between pre- and post-surgery, I've lost about 50 pounds now. (20 pre-surgery, 32 post.)

Things they don't tell you about this process (or maybe it's unique to me) : Your skin goes to hell. I slather myself with the strongest lotion I can find, twice a day, and I'm still nonstop flaking all over. I finally started putting olive oil on my skin instead, and that seems to be helping. Too bad I can't put it on my scalp, because that is flaking as badly as the rest of me. :/

But hey, at least I have two more months before I'll start losing my hair! :P (At the three month point you lose some to all of your hair. I really, really, really hope I'm on the low end of that hair loss scale.)

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I noticed something really odd last night. Before surgery, I used to play a game while falling asleep: If you could pick any three foods in the world and have an unlimited amount of them to eat, what three foods would you pick? You didn't have to worry about getting tired of them, as the next night you could pick three new ones.

I couldn't sleep last night, so I tried playing the game...Collapse )

This is really scary. What other changes have happened to my brain that I don't know about?

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Current Mood: worried worried

Nutritionist: Apparently I'm ahead of the game. She said most people lose 15-20 pounds in their first month, and I've lost 30. She made the same suggestion most of us (me included) already knew: Don't weigh myself every day. She said to do it every two weeks, but I think I'd go crazy waiting that long, so going to go back to doing it once a week and trying not to check other times.

Diet: Just to keep record of things, I've "cheated" twice on my diet:

Once was "on purpose" (last week I was so miserable, crying at everything, losing no weight and eating nothing and thinking my life would never be happy again because I'd never eat "normal" food ever again), so I went to Popeye's (fast food fried chicken). I got a kid's meal (one chicken finger and some fries), gave the drink (soda) to the guy standing behind me on line. Ate half the chicken finger, and amazingly didn't get sick (in fact, I felt better after eating it than when I eat food I'm supposed to). It's amazing the changes that half chicken finger did for my mood, like night/day changes.

The second time, yesterday, was "not my fault" (excuses, it totally was). Panda Express has a chicken and green bean dish, which is just plain chicken breast and green beans in a soy sauce. Seriously low calories, low fat, almost no carbs, so fine to eat. I had a buy one get one free deal, so I went in and ordered two small sides of it. One I ate for lunch, the other I had for dinner... but somehow the woman at the counter packed the wrong thing as the second order and I had a side of orange chicken instead (sweet, fried, spicy). I had a little bite of it, "just to see", and it was so good I ate more (about a third of the small container). I was so certain it would make me sick, but it didn't.

I'm not happy that I cheated, though neither was too horribly bad. Those two things were the only fried things I've eaten in more than a month, the only time I've broken my diet at all. I want to live by "all things in moderation" if possible, though I'd rather start it later, once I'm done with the healing diet part of this.

Flight Rising: I don't need another obsession, but when accounts opened up yesterday, I decided to make one. I'm ThistleChaser there. I told myself I was making one "just to see what the site was like", but that's what I said about Neopets more than a decade ago, and then I was active on the site for ten years. I'm amused at how the first thing that happens after you make a dragon is that some random wild one shows up to breed with it.

RP: Oh man, I'm getting so much RP and it's so good. More than that, I'm getting a lot more social interaction/chatting because of the forum RP group. I'm in the great position where I actually sometimes turn down RP now because I have so much! Even though I write all day at work, writing for RP is a totally different animal. It just feels so good to write that way.

I'm really missing reviewing books. I'm about 25% into the second Stormlight Archive book, and there's still 18 hours of reading left before I finish. x.x I'm really, really loving the book, but man has the series killed my book count for the year. I was on track to beat my 50 book goal, but now I doubt I'll get out of the 30s. Still, it's worth it.

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Current Mood: okay okay

It's been a week since I last made a post. Sort of. I've written a few and then made them private because they were too depressing. I really don't want my LJ to be just blah blah blah sad bad sad stuff blah.

Then I discovered that, again, for the second time, I've stressed myself out, spent a whole day crying, for a totally inaccurate reason.

The last post that I didn't post started with "There are many things that I dislike about my life right now, but a big one is that I'm so focused on my weight." What's worse than that? Being so focused on my weight and being wrong.

See, I had six days with no weight loss. Today would be #7, but I lost less than a pound, so. How could I lose no weight? I'm eating about 600 calories a day (I know that's low, but I really can't physically eat more; 400 is from protein shakes, and the rest is from 6-8 tablespoons of food). I spent most of Thursday crying because life is miserable when you can't eat and I wasn't even losing weight!

Tomorrow I'm going to the nutritionist, so I did the math so I'd have exact figures and be able to tell her "It's been a month since my surgery, why have I lost less than ten pounds?!" But know what? It's been 27 days and I've lost 30 pounds. I was stressing, I spent all day Thursday crying, for nothing.

Know what makes this worse? I did the exact same thing a week ago! I was CERTAIN I wasn't losing any weight, but when I checked my notes and did the math, it worked out to a pound a day.

Maybe lack of nutrition is stopping my brain function or something. I was absolutely certain I've only lost less than ten pounds. Both times!

It's a darned good thing I weigh myself daily and write it down every time.

Though, body? Let's not do another week with zero weight loss. I don't think I can take the stress of it.

I really hope my brain starts working again soon. I need it.

Current Mood: confused confused

I changed my default icon by mistake, but know what? It's fitting for October, so I'm leaving it.

And to continue that trend, I have two scary links for you.

Talk about Ebola is a lot scarier when you add the The Walking Dead theme music behind it.

(To be clear, I'm not scared of Ebola in general. Despite all the coverage it's getting in the news, it's very, very, very hard to be infected by it. Don't handle body fluids, don't handle corpses, and you'll be fine.)

For Story #2, I have to question if it could be true. I hope it's not. Roots grow out of vagina after woman uses potato as contraceptive.

"Sex education is a taboo subject in the conservative Columbian community..." See, parents? Stop being against sex education.

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Current Mood: tired tired

It seems to always happen. When I'm at my lowest point and make a post about it, the next day everything turns around...

I ate food! A real meal! I feel human again.Collapse )

So, all in all, 100% better than yesterday!

I'm back to work tomorrow, after three weeks of vacation time, so that's going to be a big challenge. I'm going to take a protein shake with me (I bought a Thermos container just for it), but I'm not sure what I'll do for lunch. Take a little pre-packaged cheese, I think. Maybe more of this chicken salad in a little container.

And for your amusement, see Dolores Umbridge's first (and probably only) kiss, told through Legos:

What ever happened to my book reviews? I'm working on the second book in the Stormlight Archive series. Each one is longer than a GRRM or Stephen King book, so man, it's really slowed down the number of books I'm reading. I'm only about 10% into this second one. The third book is due out in spring of 2016, I'll probably be done with the second one by then. :P

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As of today, I'm okay to eat normal food, but that's easier said than done...Collapse )

In non-food news, I joined a forum RP group for the first time ever. I didn't think forum RP would be for me (I like real time RP so much), but forum RP is great because you can write as long of posts as you like. I've always had to hold myself back in RP, but now I can write and write and write. The (very big) downside is how long a post round takes. An exciting scene I'm in hasn't had a post from one person in more than 24 hours, so it stops the whole scene dead. Sigh! Still, as a supplement to "real" RP, I'm enjoying it a lot.

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Current Mood: down

I'm going to start putting surgery updates behind a cut, to make them easier for people to skip if they're getting bored of reading about it.

Doctor, doctor, gimme the news...Collapse )

In other news, there's going to be a Tetris movie...

Link with info on it.

Who knew country music was big on, um, bestiality? C'mon, baby, let's Meow Mix it up tonight?

Current Mood: good good

For no real good reason at all (no major craving or hunger), I tried the next stage of food (pureed/babyfood) 24 hours early (or a week late, if not for the medicine mishap with the rash). I had a wedge of Laughing Cow cheese. This, if you're not familiar with it. 50 calories of the most delicious food I ever tasted. So salty and rich! (Yes, I didn't even use the light version, as I don't think the difference between 30 and 50 calories means much for me right now.)

It shouldn't surprise me, since it was the whole purpose of all this, but after eating that wedge I was stuffed. I should have eaten less than a whole one, though I didn't realize it until I was done. I remained stuffed for two hours after eating it. So odd (but good!).

While on one hand I'm not sure why it didn't count as a 'thick liquid' food (there was nothing at all to chew, it just melted in my mouth), it did feel different in my stomach. Sort of like when you eat something and it feels like you're stuffed with a lump of food. Not really a good feeling, even though it tasted amazing and I can't wait to eat more tomorrow.

I can't even put into words how good it tasted, so salty and rich. My first food in 18 days!

In non-food related news, I finished watching the third season of Avatar the Last Airbender (Korra version). hamsterwoman mentioned it, and we've been watching at roughly the same pace. Non-spoiler version of review: I liked it, but I didn't love it at all. If you have nothing better to do, it's worth watching. It's better than the previous two Korra seasons (hard not to be), but worse than any of the Aang seasons.

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Writing all that up, I guess I liked it less than I originally wrote. If it had been an original series, if I hadn't been comparing it to the Aang seasons, I probably might have liked it more.

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Name: Thistle
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No life can escape being blown about / By the winds of change and chance / And though you never know all the steps / You must learn to join the dance / You must learn to join the dance
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