Belatedly, GIRL I FEEL YOU, I think we are about the same age, and I had an absolutely CRUSHING biological hormone smackdown earlier this year. Put me in a blue "Nooo, I have to meet a dude and fall in love and have babies IMMEDIATELY OR IT WILL BE TOO LATE" funk for like three days.
And then I realized oh shit, oh fuck, if I did that I WOULD HAVE ONE FOR EIGHTEEN YEARS AND I AM ABSOLUTELY NOT READY FOR THAT. However, I do enjoy meeting and interacting with my friends' and brother's kids, and I am grateful some of them are giving me quite a substantial role in those kids' lives. My brother and his wife actually told me when they learned the gender of the baby that they were glad she would have me as a strong female role model that did what she wanted and didn't take no shit. They are also wildly opposed to spending their vacation taking a kid to Disney, so HOLY SHIT WILL I EVER TAKE THAT ONE FOR THE TEAM, COME WITH ME TINY NIECE, I WILL DISNEY THE SHIT OUT OF SOME VACATION.
Sometimes I feel guilty that I am not really interested in raising kids, because I am SMRT and have my shit together, and you hear so many stories about kids from families that don't, and foster kids who had terrible experiences and ran away and were trafficked. But you also hear a lot of stories about kids who are unwanted. So.