That's all backstory for a related thought: Jack and Grayson had become close friends. It was only in last night's scene that Jack found out Grayson was one of the bad guys. I was somewhat surprised at how little finding out about that betrayal meant to Jack (he didn't yell at Grayson or try to hurt him or get mad, he wanted him to come closer and make physical contact to let him know he was really there and other things). I thought about that all last night and this morning, and I finally got my head around it (I think). Only in movies and books might a friend or lover get mad at the other person in that situation. After four full days of torture, with bones broken and burns and shocks and cuts and bruises on his bruises, I think the physical pain would be much, much worse than any pain of betrayal. Also, I'm thinking that one's mind would maybe help protect someone in a situation like that: You have so much physical pain to deal with, what would useless emotional pain help? Ah, I can't seem to get this into words right, but my general thought is that it's unrealistic drama to have someone somehow be able to push all that pain aside and show anger after nothing but defeat and seemingly endless abuse. I've broken bones years ago. I can't even imagine what four days of torture would be like. Tied to a chair, bleeding, burned, beaten... and to know that there's really pretty much no chance of escape or getting out of this alive? It makes my stomach twist just to try to feel that.
Now perhaps, if a character was especially strong, maybe they could summon up
some anger... but Jack wasn't strong. A sentence from one of Grayson's poses really sums him up:
"You were so beautiful, so wonderful, so eager and so weak. I loved you for it, and I still do. I've got a lot of friends already gone before us both - they'll look after you, when the end does come."
Sheesh. Makes my eyes burn and blur a little just to read that pose over again. Grayson's player rocks. :)